What “Love Over Fear” Cost Me…
Writing Love Over Fear cost me a lot. May have cost me my relationship, lost an old part of myself, lost my familiar comforts in life, and most of all it cost me my excuses, assumptions and delusions I had. All of the sudden all of my ambiguous beliefs were grounded in an unshakable foundation. The run-around ways of making excuses for this and that crumbled around me. All of the sudden, what was right, meaningful, fulfilling was attractive to me. I actually felt excited to make the changes in my life that I had always just dreamed about making with no follow through. I found a place of contentment in an extraordinary motivation of betterment.
Slowly but surely, I kept on eating with intention, writing with intention, conversing with intention, exercising and moving with intention, and breathing with intention. My habits became places of growth rather than stagnancy. My nervous system regulation evolved more and more to be able to shed the qualms of the minute daily annoyances and crummy behavior of others. My perception opened more and more, experiencing unexplainable things. My dreams became more and more an intimate and conscious part of my daily experience of growth, observation, and learning. My familial trauma, religious trauma, financial trauma, and triggers became more and more observable from a non-reactionary state. I learned more and more, that I know less and less. The mystery of this wonderful universe and reality widened and excited me more and more. I started observing everything that came into my perception as flowing emanations that I didn't need to pay attention to, worry about, and started finding humor and forgiveness in some of the darkest places. I wrote for myself. To bring a grounded dimension into reality that staves off the ambiguous, confusing, directionless, and overtly manipulatable truths that I had seen others follow to the ends of the earth without thinking for themselves. I saw more and more places in the human psyche that opened the way to bypassing.. and exposed it, popping the bubble of lying to myself or taking the easy way out. It brought such clarity that conversations with others who sought such clarity but had never been able to commit because of a fragile sense of attachment to external influences would lose nervous system regulation, and I had to learn to communicate slower, softer, and on a level that relied on their curiosity rather than explaining something one didn't have the bandwidth to hear.
I compiled everything that I learned; glimpses of truth, synchronicities that couldn't be ignored, messages from nature, social dynamics, culture that opened up new ways of thinking, and I put it in this book, “Love Over Fear: A Foundation for Autonomy”. This is a path of individuation. A path of personal freedom. A path with the most steadfast and reliable grounding that you can really make your own, and run with. A tool to promote self-reliance as well as creating community. If I believed in such a thing as pride, I would be proud of what I had accomplished, but I don't, so my joy, contentment, and excitement foots the bill there plenty and leaves the room for me to continue my work in my new content.
Wrapped in an non-confrontational and seemingly agreeably package, “Love Over Fear”.. It makes sense. It seems so simple. Yet it's the most confrontational piece of literature that I've ever seen because it strips away all the nonsense, all the perfectly logical explanations and asks, “Where does Love play the role here?”. I invite you to embark on this journey of Love, by yourself, with me, with others, however you may do it… and see where it takes you. See what new piece of your universe is opened up. Love is truly infinite and the glimpses of that infinity that have surfaced through this journey have been life changing for me and many others.
Most of all the costs, Love Over Fear cost me my chains. My limitations of my own mind and heart. It freed me to be able to have a reliable sense of self and a detachment of self. It has cost me my unconsciousness and replaces these unseen parts of the world with new insights and observations that further progress my consciousness the more I walk this path.
Early on in my writing, someone asked me how I knew the difference between what was right or wrong? To them, any sort of non-dogmatic spirituality was easily molded to find any narrative. Which it can be absolutely. Without this. So I responded, “Love Over Fear. I ask myself and observe whether something is rooted in Love or fear and the truth is revealed.”
